I always get the same kind of empty sadness filling me, and it always seems to come the minute I think it’s gone forever.

My brain knows that there is a need for connections, despite how viscerally I ignore it.

Don’t look too far

If I begin to feel lighter,
hold me down,
and I’ll be yours forever more

God bless this mess I’m in,
for it’s time
to be rid of a certain sin

A cool breeze down my spine,
and if I’m really here,
then I feel fine

A freelance child,
you bring it all back
This world is eating me inside

Missing a degree of warmth;
a name without a face
I’m losing grip all the same

I sever the line that divides
I sever the feelings inside
I sever between you and me

I want to learn to fly
Bring the pain right back again
Is this all there is of me?

Hearts and minds find the time,
but in the end, there was no possible reason for anything

Hoodoo

Come into my life
Regress into a dream
We will hide,
build a new reality
Draw another picture
of the life you could’ve had
Follow your instincts
and choose the other path

You should never be afraid;
you’re protected from trouble and pain
Why, why
is this a crisis in your eyes again?

Come to be,
how did it come to be?
Tied to a railroad,
you’ll have to set us free
Watch our souls fade away
Let our bodies crumble away
Don’t be afraid;
I will take the blow for you

And I’ve had recurring nightmares
that I was loved for who I am,
and missed the opportunity
to be a better man